Filled With Gratitude

Hi Friends,

I am so filled with gratitude this morning for many reasons.

To name just a few:

  1. Interest in SmokeFreeSuccess® is growing with a KEYT news story and an interview in SB Fitness Magazine.
  2. My loved ones are happy and well.
  3. We finally got some rain in Santa Barbara yesterday, to return again tomorrow.

Liquid nourishment.  That’s what I call it.  And I am learning from the brilliant pacing of nature.  Take a little in…pause…let it filter, nourish and replenish.  Then take in some more.  Incremental.  Too much can be overwhelming, and sometimes create more problems.

Launching a new business while simultaneously working in my private practice can feel like more than full-time work.  I love what I do, the people I am privileged to work with, the joy that vibrates out into the world as each of us experiences healing.

And, life is full.

Like many of you, I hold many roles.  All of which I love, and all of which use energy.  In addition to an entrepreneur, I am a wife, mother, sister and daughter.  It’s the daughter role that recently rerouted me; it’s why I have been out of touch.

My mom had another health scare.

We got news that my mom needed a lumbar puncture (LP) to either rule in or rule out–that’s what the doctor said, “rule in” –leptomeningeal spread.  He said that’s just a fancy way of saying, “swelling in the lining of the brain tissue”.  When I heard swelling, I felt relieved.  You see, a few months ago the doctors thought they picked that up on her MRI scan, but when they did the LP every thing was ok.  No big deal.

So I inquired what the MRI said about the existing two tumors and the effectiveness of the radio surgery she had two months ago.  The doctor didn’t have a clear answer.  He said he was more concerned with the leptomeningeal and after the LP we would have a better idea of what coarse to take.  But I still want to know, what about the tumors? In the doctor’s attempt to answer, he is humming and hawing, “There are more tumors. Maybe there are more tumors, maybe.”  What does that mean?  All I hear is MORE TUMORS.

Fear and curiosity got the better of me.  I looked up leptomeningeal.  Big mistake!

Leptomeningeal metastasis (LM), or leptomeningeal carcinomatosis ,is a devastating complication of non-small cell lung cancer… median overall survival was 3.0 months

My mom has been living with the experience metastatic non-small cell lung cancer for seven years.  That is six more years that she was “given”.  She is a walking miracle.

My mom underwent three plus years of chemotherapy and then switched to a lung cancer vaccine shot that is still in clinical trials.  She has been doing the monthly shots now for four years.  In that time, she has had her appendix removed, her knee replaced, back surgery, blinding in one eye-and return of her sight, a blood clot in her lung, inflammation in the lining of her brain… and she just keeps going.

I call her Timex –she takes a licking and keeps on ticking.

My mom had her LP, and we just got the results.  No leptomeningeal.  Big exhale!

And so with that said, I am returning to my work.  Slowly, patiently and with more faith.  Moving at the pace nature teaches me. The trees haven’t fretted over the drought, they just drink up the water when it’s provided, and sparkle more brightly in the following sun.

I am enlivened with my passion to inspire and gently guide others to their reach their full potential, as I reach mine.

All my best,

If one advances confidently in the direction of his dreams, and endeavors to live the life which he has imagined, he will meet with a success unexpected in common hours.
–Henry David Thoreau